In this episode, I take you inside a rare quiet moment—recording from the office while the world hums (and occasionally yells) in the background. It’s a fitting setting for a conversation about what creativity really looks like when life isn’t ideal.
I open up about my creative process—one that doesn’t fit the polished, daily-posting mold you see online. Instead, it’s built in the margins: between work, family, and church. It’s slower, less visible, but intentional. And lately, I’ve come to appreciate that kind of process for what it is—sustainable, real, and capable of producing meaningful work over time.
From there, the conversation shifts into something more personal. After dealing with ongoing fatigue, I finally went to the doctor—and that decision changed everything. What I thought might be mental or emotional turned out to be something physical. With that addressed, clarity and creative energy started coming back. If you’ve been feeling off lately, this might be the reminder you need to take that step and check in on your health.
That renewed energy led to a major creative turning point: I pulled Shadow of the Night (and related work) down from Amazon. Not out of failure—but out of vision. Looking back, I saw opportunities to strengthen the story, deepen characters, and unify the narrative across multiple projects. The plan now is bigger: to merge the existing material with new content into a single, definitive release that better represents the story I’m trying to tell.
I also share where things are heading next—future releases, expanding the Apocalyptiverse, and the ongoing challenge of building creative partnerships in a space where most work is transactional.
Finally, I talk about stepping into a new role at church—exploring Bible teaching in a more intentional way. It’s a reminder that not every path requires mastery of everything. Sometimes it’s about recognizing your lane—where your focus, voice, and calling naturally align—and growing from there.
This episode is about pacing, perspective, and progress—the kind that doesn’t always show up on a timeline, but changes everything behind the scenes.
Timestamps:
00:00 – Recording in the margins: work, life, and creative reality00:01 – Rethinking creativity and comparing different workflows00:03 – Coming out of the fog and rediscovering joy00:04 – Health check: fatigue, diagnosis, and regained energy00:05 – Creative breakthrough and major writing session00:05:50 – Pulling Shadow of the Night and reworking the story00:07 – Rethinking release strategy: comics, magazine, and full-volume vision00:08:30 – The challenge of creative partnerships vs. transactional work00:09:20 – What’s next: Mars, Harbinger, and future releases00:10:15 – Stepping into Bible teaching and finding your focus00:12 – Understanding different teaching lanes and personal calling00:13:50 – Final reflections and closing thoughts
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